Placement day has arrived

Hey everyone. Awesome news here.......
Soooooo the day came when I received an email from my caseworker. That was on June 6th 2014. She stated that it was an unusal case involving an infant. We set up to meet and discuss it the following week. 
At the meeting she discussed that the babygirl was currently in foster care after birth as the mother is unable to care for herself nor anyone else. She was deemed legally and medically unable. My adoption caseworker then showed me pictures,  and I can say that even before hand I have already claimed it. I feel in love with this innocent being. 
We set up dates to meet with the birth mother as she did choose me from my profile. We meet late June and it was a bit scary as I didn't know if she would black out and go off or what due to her medical issue. Everything went smoothly. 
I finally meet babygirl in July, when I first saw her, she smiled at me and grabbed onto my finger as if to tell me I am mama. 

Due to the situation, the plan was to visit and spend time to bond with babygirl  the week of placement and that beautiful Friday in mid July I would bring her home for good. 
July 18th 2014 was that day. I was excited, nervous and ready. I just wanted her all to myself to love. I first took her to my mother home to finally meet. My mom feel in love, then I bought her home, walked her around the house, meet the doggie and her room. She ended up going to sleep after I fed her, so I took her to her crib to nap. Of course I took pics galore of her on my phone. 

After placement day, and due to it being an 'open adoption' and legal technicalities, we still have to go to the adoption agency for her to see her birth mother. And each month my caseworker comes out to see her, which is totally fine. However, I am ready for everything to be finalized of course. Which might not happen until early next year. 

At this time, my babygirl is 6 months old, healthy, and happy. The parent termination has been reset for the end of the year now. So I have to wait until then and continue meetings with the birth mother one more time this year maybe and caseworker monthly. I pray everything goes well on babygirls well-being, best interest and my behalf. 

For all those who are reading my blog. Please keep us in your prayers. And for those who are looking to adopt, if you are ready...go for it. Those in the waiting phase, always remember to remain positive. It WILL happen. I am living proof. I'm a single adopting an infant. I started early last year and look at to where I am now with the process. It will happen, it may take a lot of patience and its all worth it in the end! SMILE :0)
I have always asked myself whats my purpose in life after going through the things I had to endure or whatnot...maybe this is it. To help children in need. To share my love and compassion. Who knows. Anyhow, this is my update and I am as happy as I can be. Happy reading! 

Completion and the waiting game

I can finally say that I have successfully completed my homestudy. I received my certificate and have started the searching, applying to grants. And of course waiting for that call to come pick up my baby/infant. 

Has opening my life up anything I regret... NO. I would do it again and again. I can say that this is truly a blessing and I am surly hoping for the best that my call will happen this year. Anxious isn't exactly what describe how I feel.. but I soooo much want this and desire to the utmost. 

Therefore, I would like to say that my next update will be about the baby. Advice to anyone who even thought about adoption, to go for it. Even if its for a seminar, informational meeting, etc. Getting through the homestudy and being approved would be the complex of the entire process in my opinion. The waiting for that call would be the next one but not as hard as waiting to be approved per se. NOW don't quote me yet. But I do like to stay positive. 

Home Study Completion

I can say that I have 100% completed the Home Study process. I have my last meeting back in June. I had to take a class called Adoption Identity, Attachment... which I can say was VERY informative and well worth it. I took it as another step to my adoption verses saying.."not something else uggg". I take things in a positive light. 

After the class, I sent a copy of my certificate to my case worker, to find out that someone has not sent in the reference from my list. Of course I went ahead and contacted them and they was gracious enough to do it the same day and turn it in for me. True blessing!!! And I truly appreciate her for taking the time out of her life to do this for me.

So now I can say that I have completed and just waiting for the acceptance/approval. I know I have the last fee to pay as well. Which I will take care of soon. I just hope and pray that everything goes my way. That's the nerve wreaking part then when it does, the waiting for that phone call to meet and pick up MY BABY. WOW.. I feel that I'm almost there and I'm praying that I will be the best mother/parent ever!! 

Beginning process

So after my search and blessed luck of finding an appropriate agency, I proceeded with attending seminars, etc. 
Then after being accepted via application process, the start of the paper work. Yes, its very intensive, precised, detailed etc. Worth it? YES. If you want, desire something so bad then it would be no stress nor problem. I can say that because I have successfully completed my paperwork, submitted necessary documents, etc. 

Homestudy is a series of 3 meetings *since I am single adopting*, the last one takes place in your home so that they can see where the baby or child will live and sleeping area. 

Homestudy started once the first set of documents were sent in. That is where my case worker asked me questions about my family, childhood, growing up, scenarios, future places, etc. She also would inform you of  anything additional needed or what has not been submitted, such as references not returning their portion. Which is something I had endured unfortunately. I thank the Lord that I had more than 3 individuals that was ready on stand by if I needed. With that said, I would suggest to anyone to make sure you have a list of at least 10 people who are willing to be references and if one 'forgets' or what ever the case may be, you have the others to fall back on. 

For myself, currently my last meeting will be this week at my home...and I am so excited, anxious and nervous at the same time. I pray that everything goes in a positive and good light. As I feel that this is truly my time and I am ready! 

What made me want to adopt

This question has and probably will continue to arise when I put it out there that I am adopting an infant.  WHY?

I have always wanted babies...my own and even said I wanted to adopt at least one as well. Then even more strongly once I truly experiences parenthood thanks to my ex fiance of 4 children ages 3-12. I was the 'stepmom'. I was there safe environment some may say due to the other parent or lack of. *me being nice*. Yes they did call my mommie as I did NOT mind doing anything for all of them, going on outings to museums, etc. Taking care of them when they was sick and even when I was sick as a dog. I loved that and truly missed that. 

At one point we tried to conceived and could not successfully, to find that I am unable to do so naturally. So I figured I could try to adopt... well timing is everything because when I looked in the past I could not find a reputable agency that was legit. So after the breaking up of my ex fiance, I happened to stumble across an agency and the rest is history. Blessed...yes.